Sadly In Love With the Idea of Love

Love.Lust.Longing.LosAngeles.Lesbian.

2009-02-12T05:44:00.000-08:00

The L Word

ANG HOT NIYA NAKAKAIYAK. :((

Volleyball <3

2009-02-09T02:04:00.000-08:00

Pff. What a daaaaaaaaaay. :|
Super pagod sa volleyball.
Nakakahiya pa. nagdive ako sa lupa.
Ok raz. walang tubig dun :|
Anyway, It's ok guys kahit na di tau nanalo.
Ganyan talaga. Sadya tayong mababait at namimigay tau. :))

Aves. Di ko pa rin nakakalimutan ginawa mo.

FUCK YOU.

2009-02-07T23:06:00.000-08:00

yay! I arbor-ed the laptop of my dad. :))

2009-01-28T04:55:00.000-08:00

I hate how you treat me as if I'm very fragile.
I can't take it anymore. :|

Please. Please. Just let me go.
You guys took care of me when I was a kid,
Don't you think it's time for me to grow up?

~~Sometimes I just wish I was born in a different time at a different place.~~

Sorry..

Need - Hana Pestle

2009-01-18T01:17:00.000-08:00

While waiting for my headache to subside, (darn Physhit.)
I found this song.. Need by Hana Pestle and I really
think its perfect for New Moon the movie. Check it out. :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCDT7X_lhzk&feature=related

2009-01-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

I flunked UPCAT. Damnit.
Byebye ROB. :|

*sabi na nga ba dapat Monggol #2 ginamit ko e. :))

experimental game

2009-01-14T01:41:00.000-08:00

What have I done for the past few weeks?
Errr. Give me a second to think. :))

NADA.

ok, not exactly nothing. I just killed my third
kitten!. :D Isn't that wonderful?
After taking care of a kitten for three weeks,
I learned how to let go of something you love.
Well.. I didn't exactly love the kitten, I just
got used to waking up in the middle of the night
to give him his bottle of milk. I also used to wrap him up
in a towel to keep him warm. Aww. Ok.
I miss him. :( Anyway, he served his purpose
in this world. You know how? I got to dissect him! :D
Hey! I know what you're thinking. :|
No. I didn't kill him just for my experiment, he died
naturally, it turned out he had worms inside his tummy.
Ewwww. After he died, I asked the permission of
my dad if I could dissect the kitty. He agreed and
was actually happy for me that I was going to dissect
on my own. So I decided to bring my brother so he could
watch a kitty being opened up. :D Eventually, I did it
at the garden and phew. His insides smells awful.. like
rotting garbage, then when I cut open his stomach,
these really long fat worms crawled out. I'm not
exaggerating, it was really disgusting..
Too much experiment. :|
Though I'm too happy to be disgusted. :)

Sorry? =)

2009-01-13T02:27:00.000-08:00

PFF. I missed blogging :D

Hey you! I know that you're still angry, heck. obviously.
It's just that I miss my friend. I miss my guy buddy who
usually stays up at night with me just so I could finish my
delayed requirements. I also miss the guy who keeps on
pestering me every time I'm busy. I miss the guy who
taught me to be who I am, to act like a boy and fight for
myself. :)) Kidding. But seriously, I do miss you. I know that
it was my fault and I just didn't think about how you guys would feel.
I acted as if he's more important than my bestfriends... which is wrong.
I know, and I just want to apologize to you. I would have done it yesterday
but it seems that you didn't want to talk to me, which is understandable I guess.

I just can't let this friendship go to waste.
I miss my bestfriend and I hope you can forgive me already.
Please? I have a lot of stories to tell you. :)

2008-12-27T19:24:00.000-08:00

bulok na nga 2.
tntmad mgupdate. sowee. :P

belated merry xmas and advanced hapi new year. :))

last vanity pics of Joker. :)

2008-12-11T01:55:00.001-08:00

ILY baby :D

2008-12-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

R.I.P.
Joker
Adoption date: November 1, 2008
Date of death: December 11,2008 (1am)

Goodbye my Joker. :)
You'll always be a part of me.

So un nga. He died kaninang umaga, and hours before his death ntulog pa siya sa kamay ko. Nagbonding pa kami, super lambing pa niya nun. Hay. I'll miss you my Joker, probably ikaw lang ang pusa na pnkalove ko. :)

super duper panic mode

2008-12-08T04:34:00.000-08:00

I wasn't able to update yesterday kc may nangyari. :))
ganito un. 10pm, may kausap ako sa phone.
Biglang pumasok mom ko, then pnatay lahat ng ilaw sa room ko.
Nagulat naman ako kc ang weird. sabi nya "may nakapasok sa bahay natin."
Taena. sobrang nagulantang naman ako kaya nagbbye n ako sa kausap ko.
Pumasok ako sa room nila tpos nilock nila ung pinto. Grbe sobrang
panic kaming lahat nun. Yung dad ko may hawak na 9mm gun
nakatutok sa may bintana. Sobrang ang creepy ng scene.
nanginginig na ko nun Sa takot. Kahit yung katext ko kung ano ano na pngssbi sakin. :))
Kilala mo kung sino ka, di ko na ssbhin bka mgalit k pa sakin e. HAHA.
Aun. kinwento sakin nung mom ko kung ano nangyari.
Nagtext daw ung isang katulong namin (maid#1) na sbrang takot na takot daw
sila ni maid#2. Nanginginig na daw sila at umiiyak. So ung dad ko bumaba sa
maids quarter, tinawag niya si maid#1 wala daw sumasagot, humahagulgol lang.
Syempre nmn unang papasok sa utak ng dad ko hinostage sila
so umakyat sya agad tpos pnatawag yung guard sa subdivision.
After 2 minutes ng kaba at panic, kumatok ung guard sa pinto.
Sabi ng dad ko sa isang kuya ko "Rick, turuan kta, bumaba ka tpos itututok
ko ung baril sa harap mo." Grbe tlga. nkktkot nun. :|

Bumaba na sila tapos bnuksan un pnto. Pagkabukas nakatutok ung baril ng
2 guard sa may pinto. :| Pagkapasok sa kusina, nakita nila ung
2 katulong nakaupo sa may kama. It turned out c maid#2 umiiyak
kasi may matandang babae daw umiiyak sa ilalim ng kama niya.
Tinext nya si maid#1 na nsa taas lng ng bed nya tpos ngpanic na sila
kaya tnext ni maid#1 mom ko.

So ang weird lng tlga ng nangyri. Sobrang ntkot lng kmi dahil sa iyak ng
matanda na si maid#2 lang nkarinig. K. Ang gulo ng kwento ko.
Pero maiintindihan nyo nmn :))

2008-12-06T02:34:00.000-08:00

OMG.
Sobrang traumatized ako.
I was surfing the channels sa tv, bgla ko nadaanan kids station.
pinapalabas PHYSICS IN EVERYDAY LIFE.
Nakita ko palang c dra. domingo pnatay ko na tv. :))
sharing. hahahaha.

Palaro

2008-12-05T22:04:00.000-08:00

Go iv3. Go iv3.
Ok. hangover. :))

Even though the Palaro was quite boring,
I still had fun with my class. Love you guys. :D
Overall runner-up tayo! Yeah! :))

Sir vilo was overflowing with hotness during the game.
Hahaha. I'll upload the pictures sa multiply ko.
Check it out nalang.
www.razyforyou.multiply.com

Thanks sa mga photographers of the day.
Mom ko. haha. patbau. buban. and gabbey :D
You rock guys! :P

Damn

2008-12-05T03:03:00.000-08:00

I always pretend that I'm alright. I make jokes and laugh
my guts out just to show you guys that I'm okay.
Truthfully, I'm not. I'm sick. I'm sad and I'm frustrated.

Just last night I had the worst dream of my life. I woke up
panting and crying, trying to pull myself back to reality.

I dreamt that my dad was dying. The setting was in our old house
in La Loma. In their old room, his bed was there and there were
all sorts of wires connected to his head and his chest. At that time,
I knew what was happening, it's as if the events were all fastforwarded
and I knew that he was dying. I saw him then, he was pale and
thin, just like how his sister looked like when she was still in the hospital.
I talked to him. He told me that he knew that the guy I was with last
night is my boyfriend. Weird though, in that dream I have a boyfriend.
Anyway, I told him that he should get some rest. He replied
"See you in the morning." Then he kissed my forehead.
Deep down I knew, I'm not gonna see him ever.

That's when I woke up. I didn't know what triggered that dream.
I wasn't even thinking about my dad. I just told one person about this
dream and I didn't know why. Why him? Was I expecting that
he would do something that would comfort me? Hell. I don't even
know what his plans are. I don't even know if he feels anything
towards me. He just told me that it was just a dream, nothing else and
most dreams are the opposite of whats going to happen.

My mom arrived later this day. She went to a psychic named
Mariano something. I though my day was going to turn out
fine, but my brother told something to my dad. "Pa, sabi nung
manghuhula magpacheck na daw kayo kasi may complication
daw sa puso niyo." My mom added, "sabi nga magiging single
na daw ako kapag hindi ka pa ngpacheck."
My dad just laughed, why won't he take them seriously? :(
I can't share my dream to him, I don't have the guts to tell him that.
So please Lord, help him. :(

Premonition? Coincidence?
I can't think right right now. I hate this day.
I need you. :(

it's the start of something new

2008-12-02T04:07:00.000-08:00

K. Ano nangyayari sakin?

Didiretsuhin ko na.
Ang hot ni sir Viloria kanina.
IDC kung cno man pumupunta sa blog ko.
Di ko na talaga matitiis toh.
Sige na tawa lang kayo. Hahaha. Pero seryoso
talaga ko. Nakakaturn on siya kanina.
Sige ikekwento ko na. Hahahaha.
Baka naman gawan niyo na ko ng issue. :))

Nagtuturo kasi siya, nasa gitna ng class, naglalakad.
Ako.. doing my own business, NAKIKINIG sa kanya.
Nagbell, tpos sbrang unexpected.
Sabi niya "Grrr.."
HAHAHA. ang hot kasi ung r nya ung prang may vibration
na ewan. Di ko maexplain. K. :))
Nung una, tawa lang ako ng tawa. Di ko pa mapigilan sarili ko.
Pagkatapos ko tumawa, narealize ko na nakakaturn on siya.
HAHAHAHA. Kaderi na kung kaderi.
Walang pakelaman. :P

Baka mabasa pa to nung kamag-anak nya. HAHAHAHA.
Lheslie? =))

K. Next time nalang updates.
Manunuod pa ko Eva Fonda. HAHAHA.

These Ties That Bind

2008-11-14T23:52:00.000-08:00

*warning. This post contains spoilers.

Due to my boredom on a bright sunny
Saturday afternoon.. Ok. I'll cut the crap.
I just watched the latest Grey's Anatomy episode
and guess what? Denny Duquette (Morgan) from Season 2
came back from the grave! Yipee! I just hope
they wouldn't cut his part in this season that would
leave viewers a WTF moment. The chemistry between
Izzie and Denny is just awesome, second to the
McDreamyMer couple. I really hated Grey's for letting
Denny die. He's the most lovable character, kind, sweet and
unbelievably hot. He even passed the "Mc" meter. :))

Now, I think he's not a regular to Grey's, just a ghost. Literally. :))
There are also 2 new characters, though I didn't like any of them.
1. a weird "off" cardiothoracic surgeon, Hahn's replacement.
2. Meredith's old bestfriend, way way back from med school.
Well, I'll get used to it. :P

Anyway, I'm glad Hahn's out of the show. Phew. I really hate her.

It also looks like Cristina's having a taste of her own McHunt. XD
I can't wait for the next episode, looks like
I have to keep myself busy for a week. :P

I know you're not a Grey's Anatomy fan.
Thanks for reading my post anyway. :P

P.S. Check out the song "Trouble is A Friend"-Lenka.
(from the last scene of this Grey's episode)

It's my emo day. :))

2008-11-13T03:27:00.000-08:00

I keep on telling myself to STOP.
You know, I shouldn't be worrying about you now.
Why would I anyway? You're my past and that's it,
no commitment and I know you belong to whatever
you love doing. Don't get me wrong, I don't like you
anymore.. I think. Don't mind me. I'm just confused,
that's all. I'll forget about you soon. Anyway, I know
I'm just a pitiful high school student to you. I know you
have all those college girls hovering over you. It's ok.
I'm used to it and I'm just one of those girls dying just
to talk to you. You won't notice me, I know that.
In fact, I have this annoying voice in my head telling
me to stop this nonsense because we belong to
different worlds. That's it, just an unlikely encounter.

I feel so miserable bottling it all up inside of me. This is so
unhealthy, that's why I've decided to blog this and put it to an end.

Bye bye my Edward. For a moment, I thought you were the one.

heels over head

2008-11-10T03:53:00.000-08:00

Weird day. Fuck. The giving of cards was postponed.
How could they do that? I'm like so excited. NOT. HAHA.
Anyway, I'll keep my hopes up and wait until tomorrow. :P

I just found out that I'm a racist. :/

*dinner time*
*the whole family was watching CNN*

reporter: This is the mother of our future president, Mr. Barack Obama..
*picture flashes*

raz: omg. puti yung nanay ni obama?
kuya: oo.
raz: saklap naman nagmana siya sa tatay nya.
kuya: ang racist mo.

Sorry Obama. I know you're the next most powerful person in the world. Don't kill me. :(

"And when you hit the coast, I hope you'll think of me. And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of how we used to be.. " <3

2008-11-06T05:45:00.001-08:00

"umalis-alis ka sa trono ko dahil nagbalik na ang tunay na reyna"
"you social climbing bitch! "
"you are a desperate housewife from hell!"

HAHAHAHA. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M WATCHING IISA PA LAMANG NOW.
OMG. MIGUEL OFFERED HIS HEART, LITERALLY FOR CATHERINE. AWW.
I WISH I COULD MEET A GUY LIKE THAT. :D

I'm now officially a loser.
I'll get a life. soon. XD

2008-11-03T03:10:00.000-08:00

I therefore conclude life is dull without Oreo. Seriously. :)
Try living without it, you won't succeed.
*currently addicted to oreo*

you want a piece of me? :))

2008-11-01T22:17:00.000-07:00

Phew. November 2. Bukas may pasok na.
WTF. Do you even call this a vacation? :/
1 friggin' week is not enough for vacation.
Including all those shitwork pinoi, physics, rel,
OMG. I'm so gonna die. :/

Too depressed to blog.
my computer doesn't open.
I'm using my parent's pc.
I'm not yet finished with all those shitwork.

gotta bounce.

Ol' Hallow's Eve. :)

2008-10-31T05:54:00.000-07:00

Tired. Frustrated. Confused.
Trust me guys, they don't blend well.
Anyway, I still had fun.

My day started at 9 in the morning.
Nagising ako due to my ever so faithful alarm clock.
Siya ang reason kung bakit hindi ko natatapos ang schoolwork in time.
Stupid snooze button. :))
Pagkagising, alam ko random pero bnasa ko first book ng
A Series of Unfortunate Events. Namiss ko lang.
Grade 5 yata nung huli ko nbsa un, so natuwa ako. :P
9:30 nagulat ako, tumawag sila pam. Nawawala daw sila.
What the fuck. Papunta na sila sa bahay at nagbabasa pa ko.
So I immediately took a bath. Blabla. *fast forward*

On the way to RP. Super kwentuhan sa taxi. Ilang taon yata kaming di nagkita 3.
Manong taxi driver dropped us at "RP" tapos kaming 3 parang.. wtf.
Nasan tayo? RP ba toh? Biglang narealize ni pam l.
"raz. rp. metroeast." so ung maliit na robinsons na un ndi pla rp. :))
Si pam r. as usual, siya ung tipong, "alika commute tayo" ako c gaga.
cge tara tara. Nakita namin sa jeep "parang-antipolo" so sakin.. napakafamiliar ng parang
na tipong sinisigaw ng utak ko na sumakay papuntang Parang.
Oh God. Kaya naman pala familiar. CHANGE TOPIC.
Nagtrike kami papuntang RP. Buti nalang ndi mainit. Nagkita kami ni
Rein tpos pumunta na sa bahay ni Roland. Halfway, narealize namin na
wala kaming popcorn na dala so bumalik kami sa RP. Nung nsa tapat na kami
ni Manong popcorn sa sinehan, naisip naming magchips nalang.
K. Super gulo much. So pumunta nalang kami sa grocery at namili.
Weird. Parang last meal na namin. Andami binili. :))
Oi. Roland, if ever na mabasa mo toh. Iniwan namin ung chibog dyan pati sprite.
amp. bayaran mo yun. :))

Nagstart na ang horror marathon. OMG. w8. commercial lang. Sobrang namiss ko
lang ung hotdog ko. or ung hotdog ni rein (inaangkin lang nya) NVM.
First movie, One Missed Call. Hapon much. :)) BENTA SI PAM L. seryoso. :))
Sa kanya ako nagugulat. Ung mga tili nya mas malala pa sa artista sa movie.
hahahaha. peace pam. love you. :))
Second movie, kalahati ng Cello. Narealize namin na ayaw na namin ng Asian kaya
naglipat kami ng movie. Dun na yata dumating c tovi. haha.
Oo na. Natuwa na ko. HAHA. Joke.
Third movie, amityville. Super disturbing. ewan ko kung bakit.
Fourth Movie, Super Bad.
No Comment. Medyo nakakagaga ung movie eh. :))
So basically, yan ang naging araw ko ngayon.
Gagawa pa ko ng homework sa p6 kaia..

Gotta bounce. :)

Happy Halloween guys. awoooo. XD

Clorets Marathon

2008-10-30T06:01:00.000-07:00

nooo. Vacation is almost over. Where's the fun? The partey? Whatever.
Wala ba Halloween party ang iv3? Cge na ooohh. Deyng.
Random. Pero seriously, gusto ko panuorin my only you ni
vhong at toni. SERYOSO. Support Filipino originals. XD

Galing trinoma knina. It was supposed to be a bonding time
with my mom. Kaso ang nangyari natrauma cya kc andami nya
nakitang emo so.. sinumpa nya na ndi na nya ko iiwan dun magisa.
So k. Goodbye trinoma. Hello the block. Change venue na ng mga lakad.

May naalala lang ako. Kahapon yata toh. Nanunuod kc kami ng tv patrol.
Nafeature ung mga magulang na nananakot ng bata. Super tawa ako sa sabi
ng kuya ko.

Kuya Ron: Naalala ko nung 5 ako. Naging matatakutin ako dahil
sa ginawa ni mama sakin.
Raz: bakit?
Kuya Ron: nung hinuhubad nya yung stockings nya akala ko
nagbabalat siya. Natrauma na ko nun. Akala ko kung ano nangyayari.
Mom: Tangek. Ngayon ko lang nalaman yun. Kaya ka pala iyak ng
iyak. Di ko alam kung bakit.

Soree. super benta talaga sakin yun. HAHAHA.
Syempre ngayon lng nalaman ng nanay ko. HAHAHA.
sige na. mababaw na ko.

back from the grave

2008-10-21T22:40:00.000-07:00

Yaa. It has been 24 days since my last post. Ok. Nilangaw na nga cya. Now I'm back! Missed me guys? :D To be honest.. I'm just bored to death. Hahaha. This stupid fever is killing me. Napanuod ko na ung It's a boy girl thing, The notebook (again), the whole first season of pushing daisies, grey's anatomy last episode. Wala na kong buhay. I also fear that I'm not going to dance sa dancepro. Isipin mo nmn 2 days before family day 38 parin lagnat ko. Tapos yung alam kong steps half palang ng kanta. Matatapos na sila. Wag naman. Last year na e. :( Anyway, kung di naman ako makasayaw, full support parin ako sa iv3. Love you guys. Galingan nyo. :D

lightning, come and strike me.

2008-09-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged for a while now. I've been too busy with schoolwork, my brothers are even teasing me that I'm officially a geek. Jeez. Di lang nila alam.

I think tomorrow diyalogo na kami sa pinoi. Fuck. I haven't started memorizing my script and wala pa ko costume. Fuck. Kill me please. I don't want to commit suicide, so just push me off a cliff. I'm begging you. I thought the seniors last year were just exagerrating that they don't sleep every night. Yes that's true. Unfortunately. So juniors, sophomores and freshmen, get ready. :D

Yesterday I asked my dad if he has a toy gun. OMFG. He gave me this really heavy "toy gun" or "bb gun" as he calls it. It looks like a real gun and he even warned me that I'm not supposed to show it to my classmates before the presentation because he might get in trouble. I don't think he's kidding. Well anyway, he told me it's safe and he already removed the bullets.

Enough blogging. Concentrate on your studies. Gotta bounce. :D

greek mythology pic

2008-09-22T04:39:00.000-07:00

"Ana Mapula as our model Cronus."

"not K-O-R-O-N-U-S"

"Andi Lanuza as Gaea"
OHMYGOD. She's so HOT.

"Avery Anatalio as Hecate. =))"
*birth control.

"Cyrene Tan as Artemis"
"He stared, like Oh My God! He stared!"

"Pia Hipolito as Prometheus"
"Peace Pia, naaliw ako sa pic mo :))"

"Min Buenviaje as Ares"
"The Sexy Ares"
"God!"
"The one I slept with"
"My Kabit"

*cyempre d mgpapatalo c Aphrodite*
"Raz Gonzales as Aphrodite"
"Yes, part-time prostitute."

w h a t e v e r..

THANKS TO GELLI FOR THE PICS. :) TATAASAN KO NA SWELDO MO.

Phew, what a relief.

2008-09-22T03:26:00.000-07:00

Quote of the day: "no kidding?" -sir viloria

Morning passed swiftly, walang pumasok sa utak ko. I kept on repeating the freakin' monologue. Lo and behold, I even forgot my lines. :))

Well anyway, it's ok. At least I'm finished. Hahaha. Gagantihan ko kayo iv3. Lintik lang ang walang higanti.?? (ok. not sure.)

Looking like a prostitute with uber red lipstick sa harap ng class is so not funny. hahaha. Kahihiyan un, dadaan ka pa sa iv4 na si sir valencia ang ngtuturo. ohmygod. Ay shit. naalala ko si cy. "he stared. ohmygod. he stared!" peace cy. XD Ok lang yan. Cute ka naman e. HAHA.

Dismissal time, umuwi ako ng good mood. So dahil ako'y na sa good mood, nagbake ako ng cake for my family. E eto naman nanay ko. Walang gustong ipagamit na lalagyan. Babasagin daw, mahal, di pa nagagamit. Feel ko kahit mamatay na cya di pa nya mggmit un. oh well. Buhay nya un. :)

hell to requirements!

2008-09-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

It's 12:30 in the morning and I have classes after 7 hours. phew. I'm not yet done with my homework yet I'm blogging. Ohhh. BI talga blog. I just wanna share something.

Saturday. Sept.13
*we went to SMX(book fair) with my family*
Habang nasa pila kami ng 2nd brother ko na as in super haba. May nakita kami book of answers. SO curiousity... nglaro kami. Ako ngstart.

Me: Papasa ba ko sa UP?
Book: "Let it go."
*AMP. SUPER FUNNY. =))*

Turn naman nya.
Kuya Ik: Magkakagirlfriend na ba ako ulit this year?
Book: "Don't ignore the obvious"
*HAHAHAHAHA.*

Super tawa lang tlga kami. SInce yung kuya ko is anti-social. Wala cyang makitang gf. Gusto pa nya ung tipong drop-dead gorgeous katulad ng ex nya. Ayaw nya maniwla sakin nabulag lang un. :))

Sunday Sept.14

Habertday ate den!

ACET. Damn. Super hardcore. Grbe ee. Di mo pa tapos bsahin question tpos na ung test. :/ Anyway. Di na ko aasa. :P

Aliw lang ako sa nanay ko kanina. After ng ACET tumawag cya.
mom: "asan ka na? punta ka dito sa labas ng building"
ako: "anong building???"
mom:"sa tapat ng flagpole."
ako:"HA?? anong flagpole? Wala akong nakikitang flagpole dito."
mom:"basta. punta ka na."

WTF.

IV3 is <3

2008-09-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

Seriously guys. I love you. I know we're not yet complete, but I long for that day when we would all be eating together at Jabee.. without "THEM". HAHAHA. Inside joke. :P

"iv3's little Jabee escapade"
(courtesy of min)

It's kinda sad how Iv3 ended up. Well, it's ok. Kind of. Considering the fact that I'm with the nice group. The better group I mean. I'm bad I know. At least.. for the first time. I felt IV3 bonded. Walang plastican and all.
________
After our Jabee escapade, some of them went home by 4:30 so Inah and I went to KFC to meet up with pam ni john, pam ni michie (peace.loveuguys.) rein and roland. Uhh. Meron lang something na nangyari.. so medyo umalis si roland. :)) Yay, Happy birthday to me. C'mon guys.. greet me. Birthday ko ngayon. Nanlibre kami ni pam luber ng kfc bucket meal. :P yahh right. I spent 200 pesos unexpectedly, and I was kind of planning to buy a birthday gift for a friend. So.. sorry pam. I think maeextend nanaman ung gift mo. I have an idea na kaso short nnmn sa budget. soreee. Bawi nalang :P
_________
IV3 IS <3
_________
PS habertday din kay rein!

grad pic

2008-09-11T02:58:00.000-07:00

*currently eating vodka shots chocolate*
OMG. Delicious. SUPER. Anyway, yesterday we had our grad pic. Super bading. hahahaha.

Tany, Yabbi, Raz(trying to look seductive),inah, nadine(mukhang pornstar. HAHA.)

"we the gay people of IV3"

September 11

I hate being a girl. Seriously, If i were given the chance, I would rather be a guy. Jeez. Girls need to look pretty always, flawless and V-A-I-N. Guys... are guys. Rowdy, annoying and (~~horny??~~)

Girls need to have their period every month. So painful and disgusting. Ek. Why would anyone like blood pouring out of their...

Guys. One time, one pain. End.

Girls, would HAVE to be conservative.

Guys, would HAVE to be confident.

Err. I hope I'll be a guy in my next life. :D (Sorry. I don't believe much in heaven.)
__________

Physics was fun! I had fun with tin, kat and pia. Too bad we got 7/8. Taray ni nats ee. Magulo daw kami. err. But seriously, it's the first time I enjoyed like this in p6.
__________
Dismissal. Bonding with Aira,Gabbey (ehem.) and Nats. We talked about dogs and falling asleep on the phone. :))

chaotic family

2008-09-08T02:39:00.000-07:00

Err. Feel ko ang baliw ng mga tao kahapon at ngayon. Actually, pamilya ko lang yata. Pano naman kasi. Kahapon, I was watching Angus, Thongs and Perfect snogging (georgia nicolson's diary) then exact dun sa scene na ngssnog ung isang uber hot guy at c georgia, bglang pumasok nanay ko. Nakapikit cya at may dalang 3 stick ng incense. Isang napakalaking WTF moment. Seryoso, napatili pa ko.

Ako: MA! ANO NANAMANG KALOKOHAN YAN??
Mom: I'm driving away the evil spirits in your room. Oh ayan. Katulad ng pinapanuod mo. *tinapat insenso sa ulo ko*

Fuck. Mababaliw na ata ako sa bahay. Eto pa. Dinner time kahapon.
*kumakain nakatitig sa kanin*
Ako: Ano to?
Mom: kanin.
Ako: Bakit matigas?... *amoy* at amoy ipis.
Mom: NFA rice.

seriously. Naghihirap na ba kami? Anytime now, mafeefeel ko na lilipat na ko sa squatter's area. Eto pa kanina.

Mom: Nagsimba ba kayo sa school?
Ako: No. Prayer service lang.
Mom: Bakit? Bday ni mother mary ngayon a?
Ako: ewan.
*singit*
Kuya: Ilang taon na c Mary?
*silence.. 30 secs after*
Mom: Cyempre mas matanda kay Jesus. 16 lang yata cya ng nanganak.
Kuya: Ay teenage pregnancy. Akala ko ba pinagbabawal yun ng mga magulang? Grabe nga naman talaga simbahan o.
*silence.. 30 secs after*
Mom: Pero c Joseph matanda na.
Kuya: HAHAHA. SUGAR DADDY.

Fuck. Gusto ko ipukpok ulo ko sa pintuan ng car at tumalon sa bintana.

PALIHAN 4

2008-09-05T05:54:00.001-07:00

I stole this from min. 3rd year. Omg. I'm so like number 1. HAHAHAHA. Weeks before that lagi ako late. Lo and behold. A new me. :)) FYI. Never pa ko malate ngaung 4th year. Tama na. Lumalaki na ulo ko. :))

PALIHAN. boow-ring. Grbe. 3 kami. Raia, Laraine and ako. Cyempre nahiwalay ako sa iv3. paabsent absent pa kasing nalalaman. Anyway aliw naman sila nanay. Oh god. Ngaun ko lng nlman di ko alam pangalan nya. :D Sobrang kwentuhan lang kami at nung wala nang masabi sa isa't isa. Pinapanuod nya kami ng detective conan. Nkakahiya aminin, but i was too engrossed to pay attention to nanay. Epal nga ee. BITIN. ASAR. Patapos na ee. Malalaman na kung murder ba tlga ung nagyari, tpos sasabihin nung babae sa 7 "Dyan ngtatapos ang detective conan, abangan sa lunes para sa susunod na adventures ni detective conan" tss. Sabi nga ni raia "nakakabitin naman yun" agree. agree.

After ng detective conan, sabi ni nanay punta n raw kami sa meeting place. 10:45 palang nun. Halatang ayaw samin. tsk. Binigyan ko na nga cla chicken fillet ee. Ungrateful. So nung nandun na kami sa church. May dumating na isang matandang babae. Di naman sobrang tanda. Ung kasing edad ng mga nanay natin. Nagulat tlga kami. kasi suot nya red na super high waist na shorts at super ikli. Tpos merong color red na cape at red shirt. at red striped long socks. Tapos nagsisigaw cya "ANONG PINAGGAGAWA NYO DYAN? GUMAGAYA BA KAYO KAY GLORIA MACAPAGAL ARROYO? MGA BASTOS! MGA CORRUPT NA ALAGAD NG SIMBAHAN!! GAGO!" Sbrang ngulat talaga kami. Parang monologue lang ee. or PETA. Walang reaction ung mga tao. Mukha yatang normal lang ang mga ganung pangyayari dun. Tinanong ko kay kuya "kuya, baliw ba un?" Sabi ni kuya "hindi. matalino yan. nilayasan lang ng anak kaya nging ganyan" ohh. Now I understand. NOT.

Matagtag na byahe pauwi sa stc. sumakit katawan ko. hahaha. Kung boring sa community. Lalo na boses ni RDK. Pamatay. Kahit ndi p6 inaantok ako. Kaso e2 lang nkpgaliw sakin.

steph: Ang cute tlga ni ms romero
raz: WTF.
steph: Ndi seryoso. tgnan mo oh. prang betty boop. Mukhang bata pero matnda.
raz: *parang nkita ang ilaw* oo nga noh! ang cute pa nung face nya. Parang bilog na may kulubot. parang baby! :D
steph: hahahaha. oo nga.
raz: pero alam mo. Mas cute tlga c delemos.
steph: taena. bakit?
raz: kasi ung buhok nya. Tpos lagi pa cya ngpapacute. hangkyutkyut. :D

False alarm

2008-09-04T05:37:00.000-07:00

I take it back. Ndi pala c michael cruz ung nkaspaghetti strap. kamukha lang. So yay! Di pa ladlad palda(literally) si mike. :D

Err. For the sake na humaba lang post ko. I would share a few lines of my monologue. Adlib na ung iba since nakalimutan ko na.

"blabla, perhaps you wanna devour me? Who could resist me anyway? APHRODITE. Beautiful, pure yet whorish, gentle yet fierce and most of all, seductive... I am also the goddess of desire. With a snap of my finger, I can call many gorgeous and oh so delicious men. That's why I have many uhm.. "friends", both mortal and immortal, but you know what? mortals taste better. :D "

Hallelujah!

2008-09-04T04:31:00.000-07:00

It's Thursday today and tomorrow's PALIHAN. phew. What a relief. Anyway, while I was feeding the stray cat outside the window door, (I picked him up at the cemetery 2 years ago and set him loose in our village :D) I was kind of reflecting. I thought it was stupid of me to have a crush on a gay dude. C'mon, he's like.. so.. feminine. :/ I found a freakin' picture of him on the net. He was wearing spaghetti strap with skinny jeans. OMG. Dinaig pa ko. Nagrereklamo lang ako pero crush ko parin cya. Michael Cruz <3>

Anyway, I'm watching TV patrol now, and i'm 100% sure that I heard the reporter say "NAGHIWALAY NA NGA C MARTIN NIEVERA AT KATRINA OJEDA"

KAT? SIKAT KA! BIGTIME KA NA. PUMASOK KA NA PALA SA SHOWBIZ?:D

Gay Issues

2008-09-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

I just had my haircut. :)

After school, together with my mom and kuya rick, we went to trinoma to get a haircut. Finally. So yay! I'm so glad I could finally get rid of my long bangs. Anyway, my brother and my mom finished early. Stupid barber. Stupid noisy gay barber. But he was funny. hahaha. The way he moves and talk.

gay barber: anak, who's with you naman?
me: Just my mom and my kuya.
gay barber: asan kuya mo? cya ba ung ktpat natin kanina?
me: uhmm. yeah. cya un.
gay barber: In fairness, ang gwapo nya ah. Type ko cya.
me: *sa isip* god. If he could hear you, he would literally run out of the door. *gay-hater*
gay barber: alam mo ba. Akala ko cya ung nanliligaw sakin dati. Kamukha lang pala.
me: *sa isip* PUHLEEEASE. as if papatol kuya ko sa bakla.

H.E.L.L

2008-09-02T03:44:00.001-07:00

I love the new seating arrangement. Bandang back ako pero d naman dulo. Maraming matatago. hahaha. joke. :D Seatmates cna Manuel at Pia. Kamusta naman. Sana hawaan ako ni Pia ng katalinuhan niya.

*Rel period*
~we were reporting about Mater et Magistra. Inventing new ideas and terms. Wtf. Pero sobrang aliw nung ngalit si sir. Grbe. Badtrip na badtrip e. C tanya kasi. HAHAHAHA.
Sir: Inaral mo ba report mo?
Tanya: Sort of..
Sir: ANong sort of sort of? Ok lang ba sayo na mababa grade mo? 0k ka na whatever parin ba un? Ganyan Kayo ee.... BLABLA. *after 10 minutes* GOODBYE. *walk-out*

HAHAHAHA. Sorry if sobrang mean ko. Natawa lang talaga ako. =))

*4:30 pm*
Wow. Aga ng dad ko. hahaha. ung 2:30 nging 4:30. Traffic daw and all. K. I understand. :D So magkatabi kami ng dad ko sa classroom, sbrang knkbahan na ko kung may bagsak ako. Nagulat naman ako. Biglang nilabas ng dad ko cell nya, kala ko naman may itetext or tatawagan. Tapos naglaro cya ng Bubble Pop. Ung ipopop mo ung bubble ng same colors na mgkakatabi. NAtulala ako ee. Kinakabahan ako tapos siya nglalaro ng bubble pop. WTF.

After ni Patbau, kami na ung next. So tinigilan na ng dad ko ung bubble pop nya. Ayos eh. Pgkapunta na pgkapunta ko sa table ni dacutan.
Lolah D: Buti naman d mo na suot ribbon mo?
Aq: *sa utak* ribbon? huh? kailan ako ngsuot ng ribbon? Then naisip ko. Ah. headband. so tawa lang. Wag pahiyain ang adviser. :D

Report card. PUTRAGIS. 76 AKO SA TLE. HAHAHAHAHA. Lowest grade ever ko na nakuha sa buong buhay ko. Tuwang-tuwa naman ako. achievement. Proud pa nga ako ee. =)) Ok lng nmn sa dad ko. Alam naman nya wala ako pagasa sa entrepreneurship. XD

*sa car*
ako: nakita nyo paa ni dacutan?
dad: hindi. nakalimutan ko. nakikita ko na paa niya kanina kaso di mo pnaalala sakin. Sana kinalabit mo ko. nawala sa utak ko dahil sa stress sa traffic. sayang.
ako: o_0 =))

Eff

2008-09-01T03:47:00.000-07:00

Yay. Peace na kami ng kuya ko. Nlibre ko kasi cya ng cola kanina and milk tea the other day. The things I do for love. :))

Omg. Giving of cards tomorrow. Goodluck guys, let's all die together. :D

Oh. Last one.
*Trigo period*
Tanya: Sir. mas bagay sa inyo long hair.
Sir: oo nga ee, nagalit sakin gf ko, mas gusto daw nya mahaba.

After that, tumawa kami ng 3 minutes. Soree. Iba pumasok sa utak ee. =))

you made my day. seriously.

2008-08-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

11:20PM
Wanna see something funny? Hahaha. NapaLOL ako dito ee. Kasi may taga-*insert co-ed school here* na nag-im sakin. He's 3rd year daw and may nagbgay sa kanya ng ym ko na tga-*insert all boys school here* na which bf ng kabatch ko. Third year din.

BUZZ!!!
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:15:51 PM): po?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:08 PM): hi
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:16:13 PM): hey :D
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:30 PM): can we be friends?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:36 PM): :D
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:16:45 PM): sure.
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:59 PM): i'm *Boy's name here*
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:17:10 PM): you're from..? what school?
(conversation continues. mostly q & a lang)

raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:25:20 PM): so wait. third year ka?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:25:32 PM): yep
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:25:58 PM): ikaw?
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:26:15 PM): senior na. hehe
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:26:31 PM): ahh
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:26:32 PM): hmmm
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:26:48 PM): may narnig akong story bout sayo..
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:28:49 PM): from?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:29:47 PM): secret..
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:29:51 PM): :P
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:30:02 PM): ano nmn sbi nya?
(here's the funny part)

*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:30:43 PM): d ako sure kung totoo eh
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:30:53 PM): sure ok lng. sbhin m
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:31:28 PM): dati daw nkpg "F" ka sa school mate mo..
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:31:33 PM): =)) =)) =))
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:31:36 PM): seryoso?
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:31:38 PM): =))
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:31:44 PM): yup
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:32:02 PM): wait. f as in fuck or french kiss?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:32:21 PM): finger daw eh
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:32:31 PM): oooops too personal ata..
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:32:32 PM): =)) TANGINA. HAHAHAHAHA.

raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:47:56 PM): pno m nlman na ako pnguusapan? :))
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:05 PM): may binagnit na name
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:48:16 PM): ano b pgkasbi?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:28 PM): pagka sabi ng kwnto nila?
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:48:32 PM): yup
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:45 PM): "alam nyo ba
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:58 PM): si raz daw nkpg F daw dte"
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:49:03 PM): bsta prngganyan
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:49:10 PM): bsta prng ganyan*
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:50:18 PM): ohh ok
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:50:33 PM): pero
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:50:41 PM): wal naman sa itsura mo gagwa nun :))
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:50:51 PM): talaga? =))

*Dude it's so obvious. He's making it up. Anyway. Thanks for the laugh, whoever you are. :))

I dedicate this post to gelli. :))

2008-08-28T06:49:00.000-07:00

GELLI!
I lurve you so much! hahaha.
I GOT APHRODITE. WEEEEEEEE. :)

in your face! HA!

2008-08-28T03:16:00.000-07:00

I love this day. The gods are with me. hahaha. I got Psyche for the greek mythology! yaaaay! Though I like Aphrodite more, so I accept trades for Aphrodite ONLY. :P

Except for the fact that I got Psyche, today is a fairly normal day. Ms. Dacutan raged about her "sufferings and agony". Cried a little, shouted a lot and read a letter from one of her past students. Dude. She's so.. never mind. I don't want to ruin my slim chance of graduating.

The only thing worth blogging about this day is Kuya G's dramatic monologue. XD (I forgot the other parts so adlib nalang)
Kuya G: "IV3, ano ba nangyari satin? Is it me? Sorry, I'm not perfect. What can I do to repair this? Sorry kung hindi ako parang si Sir rehoy. I am not capable of doing those things."

I pity him, really. I don't even know what is wrong with our class. Though I am one of those students who kept on reciting during our first 2 weeks of class then just stopped. I have my personal reasons. :)) The funny part is that he's like a boyfriend asking his girlfriend what the hell is wrong with their relationship. What can he do to make their relationship work? FUNNY. :))

I was like "awww. kawawa naman c sir." The he started calling names, asking what is wrong with our class.
Ako: (sa isip lang) fuck wag mo ko tawagin tangina mo.
*raz no eye contact. no eye contact. no eye contact*
The reason why I don't want him to call me is because I was thinking stupid lines in my head like "aww sir. I will mend your broken heart" because I really pity him. In a not romantic way. :P

He called Patbau though.
Kuya G: "Ikaw Patbau, ano sa tingin mo problema?"
Patbau:"Sir may problem po tlga class namin. I JUST CAN'T PUT MY FINGER ON.."
Avery at Ako: "WHERE??"

2008-08-27T05:38:00.000-07:00

tinatamad magblog. :/

Memories

2008-08-23T00:36:00.000-07:00

I am so bored. No words could explain the extent of my boredom. I tried to fix my nails. I tried to watch TV. I tried to read a book. Nothing could satisfy my boredom. :/ If only my parents would allow me to go to the mall and go shopping. :(

So I just talked to the visitors. They were the old friends of my dad, together with their son. I remember their son alright, he was my childhood friend. We went through together the awkward phases of our lives. When we were little, his mom always says that his son and I would be married someday. I was too young to understand then. 9 years ago they went to Australia, leaving us no communication. So they're back and they expect us to talk again like the old times. Which is hard because we were both feeling awkward.

Then he told me:
him: Raziel nagbago ka.
me: malamang. kilala mo ko bilang isang nene na kalaro mo sa lutu-lutuan at nilalayasan mo para makipaglaro ng sega sa kuya ko.
him: ang bitter mo. hahaha.

They just stayed for a while though, I wasn't able to say goodbye. Ok. I admit, he changed too. His fats turned to muscles, and he's so damn tall. (sorry. bitter. di ako tumangkad) His hair was highlighted, to a shade of dark blond. Also, for a stranger's eye, somebody could describe him as hot.

I don't even know what to say, what to do, nor what to react. All the memories came crashing back into my head.

dare to laugh

2008-08-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

Feel My happiness flowIng through my veins. GOOOOOD. K. I know you don't care, but hEll. I'm gonna say it anyway. I need to see him everyday, even though he wears shades, fur boa and glittery outfits. I still love him. XD

Lex Marcos = Ibarra. hooooooooooot. though di ko lamang cya nahipo kahit once. aww. sad. hahahaha. Ok lng. :D I swear I would finish El Fili by this week, I just feel so inspired. hahaha. On the way home, we talked about random things, GREEN mostly. One of my classmates asked me "Sino nagtuturo sayo nyan?" I even remember saying "Si Ms. Dacutan, nagdemo pa nga eh."

Sorry I just type whatever pops in my mind. I'm just so happy. Happy. :D

Tom Sturridge

2008-08-21T05:34:00.000-07:00

Pam! Whatever you say, Tom is still my Edward Cullen. :D

2008-08-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I don't know why I'm sad. Nothing happened for me to feel this way. I just can't describe why. Probably, something bad is gonna happen. Pleaaaase no. :(

Longing for...?

late posts

2008-08-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

Ok. medyo baligtad mga post ko ngaun. soree.
bsta e2 ung sa kahapon.
Aug. 18
JAYCEE! HAPEE! hahahahahahaha.
Masaya ang weekend ko, medyo sumablay na lang kagabi. Merong mga "unexpected forces" na humampas sa alon ng masasayang araw. hahahaha. Pero ok lang. nakakaahon parin naman. Medyo bangag nga lang ako kagabi. parang lasing lang. hahaha.

re:pahingi naman ng kasipagan mo.
ra: *shoo shoo*
re: ano yan?
ra: binabato ko sayo kasipagan ko. sound effect yan.
re: ah. eh pano naman kapag sasalo?
ra:*wam wam*

medyo bangag lang talaga noh. hahahaha. tapos until now may cold war parin kami ng kuya ko. Cge lang. wag mo lang ako pansinin. DK eh. Donkey kong. wehh.

Aug 16
uhh. for complete details. puntahan nyo nalang blog ni rein at pam. Kumpleto ung sa kanila. Tinatamad kasi ako magtype.

So anyway.. pumunta kami sa bahay ni roland kasi pyesta daw. K. Nice roland! sa bahay nyo lang pyesta. Lahat ng tao ngpunta na dyan. hahaha. Nameet lang old friends. old flames. Joke. :)) hahahaha. Masaya naman nagberserk lang ng onti si lola, pero aus lng. hahaha. saya nga eh. Sa uulitin nalang. hahaha.

(michael cruz. <3 )

the vampire diaries

2008-08-18T20:51:00.000-07:00

omg. kawawa naman blog ko. Ilang araw iniwan. Nilalamig. Naghihingalo. Nalulunod. KK. Whatever. :)) Anyway, the reason kung bakit di ako nkkpgupdate kasi I'm reading this sci-fi book. As usual, all about vampires. PERO. PERO. PERO. Mas recommended ko siya compared sa Twilight. K, twilight fans, I know hindi nyo mttnggap yun, pero totoo. hahaha. Mas maganda ang "The Vampire Diaries"
Reasons:
1. Mas nauna pa siya sa twilight. 1991 guys.
2. Not too cheesy, pero, in a way nakakakilig.
3. Maganda siya all through out. (Di katulad ng twilight na first book lang mgnda. then mapipilitan ka lng basahin yung ibang books just to finish it.)
4. Unexpected ung plot nya. Hindi cliche.

Anyway. I think enough na yan pra bumili kayo ng book. :P
Enough for now.
*shoo shoo*

Ateneo? naaah.

2008-08-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

*currently writing my ACET essay.

"Are there any significant experiences you have had, or accomplishments you have realized, that have helped to define you as a person? "

I just can't answer the question. It took me 1 hour just to write the first sentence. As far as I could remember, I don't have any significant experience worth writing. I mean, I can't write about the day I killed my own pet. God. I am so hopeless. Goodbye Ateneo. Hello College undergrad. Hello call center, hell, you even have to be a college graduate just to work in a call center. OOhhh. Maybe I could apply in Adamson, UE, or even Lyceum. But sadly, my pride makes that impossibe to happen, so wish me luck. I'm about to embark my boat to life-destruction.

don't expect happy days to last.

2008-08-12T05:17:00.000-07:00

Kung ano binadtrip ng day khpon. gnun ksaya ngaun. yay! dito makikita ang balance of nature. :D

Lyrics that keep on playing in my head at the moment:
"let me tell you about the birds and the trees, and the flowers and the trees, and the moon up above. and the thing they call looooove."
~then nalaman ko 1965 pa cya. Di ko na kinanta.

Anywaaaaaaaaaay. :D
Lahat ng kasiyahan ngstart after lunch. SA DENTAL FORUM! yaaay! Let's take care of our gingiva, because you will get gingivitis! yaaay! Then naggaguhan na. ngtanong na ng ngtanong IV3 pra ndi mkpgmusic. Mga tnong pamatay eh..
"Ano po reasons kung bkt nangingilo?"
"Gano katagal ang retainers?"
"bkt ngjajaw lock kapag may braces?"
PUCHA. As if may pake kami sa ngipin namin. hahaha.
Ilang beses pa ko nabiktima ng wedgy girls. TANGINA. Hindi masaya mastuck ang panty sa pwet. Hindi talaga. :))

PE NA. WOOOO.! galaxy ako. at mgsusuot ako ng trench coat na wlng damit sa loob. K. band-aid na nga lng daw lalagay sabi ni avery. Good idea. kaso gusto ko pa pasikipan para mukhang malaki. k. ano pngssbi ko. =)) hahaha. Tae. Tapos kinuha pa section namin para sumayaw ng "pangbagets" pra daw sa video ng '94 batch. yung kay yayo daw. who the fuck. So. abangan nlng sa youtube. HAHAHAHA.

Dismissal:
ako:pupunta ko mall suot trench coat w/ fish stockings tpos makapal na eyeliner. At magoorder ako sa jollibee. "Isang chickenjoy po. :D"
patbau: ay dapat sa mcdo nalang! magorder ka happy meal! :))
K. benta. HAHAHAHA.

PAHABOL

2008-08-11T07:15:00.000-07:00

naalala ko na name ng kuya ni sir viloria.
randiej daw. hell. parang muslim lang. pero silent daw ung j.
told yah. mas pngtripan cya ng tatay nila.

Cutting of the ribbon

2008-08-11T05:00:00.000-07:00

K. 1st of all. cutting of the ribbon kasi
inopen na ni dacutan ang 2nd quarter.

YEAH. SHE OPENED IT BY THREATENNG ME NA ILAGAY
PANGALAN KO SA BEHAVIORAL LOGBOOK.
At ang lalagay nyang reason.
"nakalabas ang bangs sa kanyang headband na may star"
WTF. WHAT A REASON.

So after ng nkkgagong experience na un.
sobrang saya ko naman ng eco.
hmmm.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
SHIT.
GANTO UN.

Kuya Gerard: ocgeh ganto nlng. bbgay ko nlng ang remaining
5 minutes sa inyo. kahit ano pwde nyo gawin.
Manuel(sa akin): tanong m nga kay sir kung pwde na tau mgbhis ng PE.
Raz: Auko nga nkakahiya kaya.
MAnuel(kay kuya g): Sir. pwde mgtanong?
Kuya g: cge. try ko sagutin. kahit anong tanong.
Manuel: Sir pwde ba kami magbhis ng pe pra sa lawn ranger?
Kuya g: Anong ilong ranger nmn yan?
*tpos blabla nkktmad mgtype
Kuya g:CGe. ganto nlng. sarado nyo ang pinto pti mga bintana
(take note. ndi cya tumatayo habang sinasabi yan. at prang wlng balak
na tumayo. nakalagay pa ang kanyang 2 pointing finger sa tapat ng bibig nya.)
*in case na mgtaka kayo bt alam na alam ko. katapat ko cya.
RAZ: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (WALANG TIGIL NA TAWA) HAHAHAHAHAHA.
* ganto reaction ko kc naimagine ko na ngbbhis kmi at nktingin pa cya samin.
isa isang tinitignan. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Kuya G: (roll eyes) Ok ka lang? (ngumiti)
*tpos umalis sa classroom
*ang awkward yata. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Trigo
*si sir din ay namigay ng 20 minutes ng period. ako'y bored at nkatitig sa id ni
sir khriztoffer viloria.

Raz: Sir bkit sa USTE ka nagaral?
Sir: gusto ko environment ng uste eh. (tpos dnescribe nya isaisa ang top4 universities. again. tntmad ako mgtype.)
Raz: eh sir. bkit khriztoffer pngalan m?
Sir: ewan ko ba sa tatay ko. artista daw yan nung pnahon nya eh.
Raz: sir. kawawa ka naman. pngtripan ka ng tatay mo.
Sir: dati nga auko ng pngalan ko eh. pero ngaun proud na ko. kakaiba eh. ntutuwa nga ako kapag sa online accounts ko. mblis mkpgreg kasi ako lng may pngalan na gnun.
pangalan nga ng kuya k(may cnbi cya pngalan na ngiistart sa letter R
at ngeend sa J. tpos may letter i at a. K pgdugtungin nyo nlng. nklimutan ko na e.
bsta mas weirdo p s pngalan nya. unang pngtripan ng tatay eh. HAHAHA.)

So. gnyan tumakbo ang araw ko ngaun.

yaaay!

2008-08-09T01:38:00.000-07:00

yaay!
Dahil buwan ng wika ngayon ako'y mgtatagalog. PURELY. (HAHA. BE WARNED!)

Tapos na mga eksaminasyon ngayong linggo. haha. wee. Buti naman at medyo nakakahinga na ko ng maluwag. 'Di naman considered(fuck. di ko siya kaya itagalog. pagpasensyahan. K. NVM. Taglish nlng.) exam ung sa USTET.

Wala un. K. Tapos biglang bumagsak. hahaha. bahala na.

Then pnakita ng kuya ko drawing nya.

aw. cute noh? so ganto yan. ung ngdrawing cya ung sa left, si Kuya Rick, holding a lala candy na pnangeentice nya sakin. k. :)) Since dati sobrang adik ko dun. Then obviously ako nasa gitna. holding my pet. Si Tikya. Most of you nakita nyo na cya. Then ung nsa right c Kuya Ron. holding 2 bones na pnangaasar nya nmn kaya Tiki. So sa gnwa ni kuya Rick, parang kaming 2 nung alaga ko ung kawawa. (ganyan tlga nangyayari sa bahay.)

:D

MEDYO MALABO UNG PIC. SO KUNG DESPERADO KA TLGA MAKITA. PWDE NMN IOPEN SA ISA PANG PAGE. :P

*And another thing, if you like the style of his drawing, you could check his deviations. Just click the link to his deviantart.

ciao.

Physics I'm Yours.

2008-08-07T01:33:00.001-07:00

Physics, I’m yours
(Tune of I’m Yours by Jason Mraz)

Well you confuse-fuse me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be cool but you're so hard that my nose bled
I fell right through the depths and now I'm trying to get back

Before the time done run out I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but Mrs. Formalejo
I reckon it's again my turn to draw some or fail some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, Physics, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and think like me
Understand your formulas and d@mn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find graph, graph, graph

Listen to the tick of the clock, put toothpick on your eyelids
A-la! complicated lovers
And it's our God-forsaken right to sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our vector is short
This is our rate,Physics, I'm yours

D-d-do do you, do you, d-d-do, do you want to kill me?
Scooch on over closer dear, I'll whisper in your ear
Oh yes love, I’ll soon love you Physics
Love you love, love you love

I've been spending way too long rechecking my computations
And bending over forward just to try to see it clearer
But my mind won’t just get it
And so I drew a new arrow and laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of errors and just go with the method
It's what we aim to do, our score is our only hope

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, Physics I'm yours

*added and deleted some lines. :)*

HEADACHE. ERR.

2008-08-04T06:45:00.000-07:00

REASONS WHY I WANT TO DIE RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT.

I have a throbbing headache.
my left eyelid is twitching
(due to lack of sleep, vitamins, and iron. Also, over-exposed to the computer. according to my mom.)
Michael Cruz is finally showing his inner self. WTF.
I have tons of things to do and yet I'm staring at Breaking Dawn, contemplating whether to read it now or study.
My past is hunting me.
I am soooo frustrated.
My back is aching.
I am so fucking sleepy.
I think I might catch a cold again.
These past few days, I have slept for only 2-3 hours each night.
~~I still don't know why my day can't be complete without seeing him.~~
ERASE. ERASE.

UPCAT

2008-08-03T05:17:00.000-07:00

Speechless. :/

Has anybody seen my brain? I think I left it at the engineering theater.

lifehouse madness

2008-07-27T07:03:00.000-07:00

yesterday morning, I was at Trinoma with Madz, franz and gabrielle.
(while we (madz, franz) were eating at Mcdo.)
Madz: nuod tau meet dave!
raz: auko. negro un eh.

I'M NOT A RACIST!
so instead, we ended up watching Prom Night,
which is good by the way :D

hahaha. anyway, I went home early (6:30pm)
so I could get ready for Lifehouse. YIPEE!
Since whenever I talk to someone about Lifehouse,
some of them would tell me (what?WHO? LIGHTHOUSE?)
So.. for the sake of relieving my boredom
I will post pictures of the members.

LET'S START WITH THE VOCALIST/GUITARIST

Jason Wade

OMG. UBER HOT AND UBER TALENTED. PHEW.
FYI GUYS. HE WROTE ALMOST ALL THE SONGS
IN THEIR ALBUMS.

THE BASSIST/SECOND VOCALIST

Bryce Soderberg

PERFECT BLOND.
Some people refer blonds as stupid,
but the hell.
You're stupid if you call this guy stupid!
The way his hand moves while plucking the strings
of his guitar.. *goosebumps*
Also when he sings, he's almost as good as Jason.
(Nobody could beat Jason) XD
And after every friggin' song, he throws his pick to the audience,
which I do not understand. sorry. :P

DRUMS/PERCUSSION

Rick Woolstenhulme Jr. (I admit, i double-checked for the spelling of his name hahaha.)

He's just the coolest drummer on earth!
Every beat of the drum, I was half-expecting
for his sticks to break. NO JOKE!
SO... H-A-R-D-C-O-R-E.

And I think Jude Cole was with them doing the guitars.
I'm not sure though,
he was at the rightmost part of the stage.

and yeah.. that's all :)

second PALIHAN.

2008-07-24T03:11:00.000-07:00

WOW.
one word.
W-O-W
second PALIHAN.
the best PALIHAN EVER.

Though the day started pretty normal for a PALIHAN day, it turned out good after all.. And that's because of my favorite person. :) Well seniors, you know her. :D

The one thing I liked about this day is the "wet 'n wild" portion.
So some of you may wonder why wet n wild.. Well one thing you notice about
one person is her face. Uh-huh, that's the "wet". Wet because.. Uhh..
I'm worrying about the fact that a school authority might come across this
blog so I'll just give you a clue. CALAMARES. Now.. just figure it out. :P
And the "wild".. you know what happened in the IMC, I know you do..
I know you love the fact that you were disrespecting the authority.
Actually, I never imagined that our batch would do something like this.
I'm quite happy though, we showed "UNITY", we were all united against
the teachers.HAHAHA.

(in case an authority comes across this blog)
PS.I didn't post anything bad about anyone. I didn't post the name at least.
SO YOU CAN'T BLAME ME! SUCKER!

And anyway, I have the right to express my feeling. Thank you very much. :)

Vibrator? WTF.

2008-07-22T03:09:00.000-07:00

Ms. DM (delemos) : gumamit kayo ng mga vibrator.
ako: PUTANGINA. ANO?! HAHAHAHAHA (wlng katapusan na tawa)
marge: miss wala kami nun, pahiramin nyo kami.
inah: WAG! BAKA GAMIT NA!

HAHAHAHA.
OK. THAT WAS SO FUNNY. :))
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. PUTA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I was really laughing so hard because I had a vivid image in my head. DON'T ASK.

OK. phew. compose yourself. raz. compose. :D

hmm :)

2008-07-21T04:10:00.000-07:00

last week in advanced computer elective, we were creating gif images.
I just wanna share what I did. :P
hahaha.
FYI
The sexy girl is sir zaraspe. :))

YEY! HE'S GAY!

2008-07-19T22:02:00.000-07:00

last night, I did a survey. Here's the question:
"Are you ok with gay relationships? It doesn't matter if it's straight-gay or gay-gay."
I wasn't surprised when I got the answers.
Yes- 6 No-3
The 3 no's came from 3 guys. Probably they're straighter than straight guys. hahahaha.
And the yes came from mostly the girls.
So.. that's it.
"YEY TO GAYS! :P"

2008-07-16T06:49:00.000-07:00

AM I DEAD?
LOL. when I woke up at 2 in the morning, my vision was like black and white.
then I checked my temperature.
38.9 Holy mother of God. =))

I'M DEAD. :D

OHMAYGULAY. XD

2008-07-13T06:28:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING.
I'm supposed to be reading El Fili and making my monologue.
so I must fight the urges to edit the layout of my blog.
..
..
..
..
..
..
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Yey! I won over my urges!
*reading EL FILI*

Adios Indios! :P

spoiler "The Fucking Warlords"

2008-07-11T08:23:00.000-07:00

argh. My life sucks. No. Rephrase that. My fourth year life sucks.
Now that's better. :)

After school my family literally dragged me to trinoma because
my dad says he's stressed out and needs to relax. So since
I'm a very loving and understanding daughter, I agreed to come
along with them.
BUT THAT WAS A VERY BIG MISTAKE.

We watched "The Warlords" starring Jet Li. Though it's ok, I give it a 2.5/5 rating. See, the thing is I didn't understand the middle part of the plot. Maybe it's my fault for being stupid or it's the director's fault for adding useless scenes. Again, maybe it's because of my stupid memory, I can't remember any character's name like.. Zhang Liang, Pang something, Er Hu? WTF. I laughed so hard at one part though, 'coz there's this guy (see. I don't remember his name) who was focused 3 consecutive times, each focus closing up on the face. The funny thing is he says only 1 line for these 3 scenes, which is "He's right". Ok. It may not be funny for you, but still, I find it stupid. :P
What I hated most was the ending. The 3 main characters killed each other for the sake of brotherhood. I mean. What the hell, what did they fight for? Their death? Jeez. Sorry. I don't appreciate history that much.

And another thing. It's not a hollywood material. Boo for the effects!

Please come back. :(

2008-07-10T07:06:00.000-07:00

(10:17 PM) July 10,08
NOOO! MY COMPUTER CRASHED!
WHHHHHYYY??!
oh. I know. I didn't turn it off properly last night,
I was too sleepy so I turned off the AVR. simple. :)
Then when I got home, I was so eager to research for the
Cuban athletes for sir zaraspe's class, I turned it on. :))
Then all I see is the gray screen of death. WEEE. XD
AND. speaking of sir zaraspe, I now know the reason why he's
called sir bogo. weee. AT LAST. XD

Anyway, I'm again disturbing the peaceful room of my parents by my
"CLICK.CLICK.CLICK.KLAK.BANG.CLICK.CLICK." of the keyboard. :)

LALALALA. Yesterday, when I was "taking a break" from Physics, I found
a site. OK FINE. I LOOKED FOR IT ON PURPOSE. :))
It's an original fic (teacher-student relationship) Don't get me wrong.
I D-O N-O-T H-A-V-E A C-R-U-S-H O-N A-N-Y T-E-A-C-H-E-R
But still, I like the plot. No. Loved the plot. If you have time.. or the guts.
Here's the link. OH FUCK. IT'S FOR ADULTS ONLY. BUT.. WHAT THE HELL :)
http://original.adultfanfiction.net/story.php?no=600095135

I'M TAKING IT BACK!

2008-07-09T02:22:00.000-07:00

I WON'T KEEP THIS BLOG ANONYMOUS. :P

Tis the season to be stressed out

2008-07-09T02:07:00.000-07:00

waaaaaaaaaaa.
My schedule for the UPCAT exam is August 2, 6:30 AM, College of engineering.
Fuck. Noo. First batch to take the exam. Goodluck! Anyway, Let me know if someone
has the same schedule as mine. pretty pretty pleeease. :(

Anyway, Trigonometry quiz was really really difficult. No, "difficult" is an underestimation, I
just can't find the correct word. But somehow I got through with it. Know why? HAHAHA.
Ok. This was supposed to be my own little secret, but I'm gonna share it anyway. :P
Those who took the quiz in Sir Viloria's class, do you remember the letters of the function?
It's spelled out as T-I-N-G-A-B-R-I and you know who Tin Gabriel is? SECRET! :))
Hahahaha. It got me laughing by myself, good thing sir wasn't looking at that time. :P

Quotes of the day:

What are the kinds of thermometer?
"1. thermometer! 2.thermometer! 3.thermometer! ANO BA TOH?!"
"ordinary thermometer." (HAHAHAHAHA.)
"manual thermometer" (Bakit? may automatic ba? :)))
"electric thermometer" (wow. may plug n ang thermometer ngaun)

"pills - swallowed with a drink"

~This just shows that iv3 doesn't take TLE seriously. =))

Laugh 'til you cry. :D

2008-07-08T06:35:00.000-07:00

9:43 PM (July 8, 08)
"Laugh 'til you cry because you'll never know when the time comes that you can't even open your mouth."

~ok. That was a fairly stupid quote, made me think for 1 minute.

Here goes.. the story behind the quote.
P.E. class was hell, in the sense of extreme happiness. It's all because of my classmate, ok, let's call her by the name Maria. We were doing stupid dance positions in the class, and everyone was mocking the positions that we were laughing nonstop. Then here goes Maria, as graceful as she is, she did this really really funny position while butt out. It was hella funny, made us all laugh and cry at the same time. The thing is, I was the one behind her, so I get the full impact of her butt. HAHAHA. You get the image. I must stop. I don't wanna remember that moment, makes me laugh until now. hahaha. :))

Just now, I've realized that senior life is really a living hell. I'm not kidding. It's just a month since the first day, and yet I'm feeling the pressure. OK, I KNOW YOU DON"T BELIEVE ME, because I still have time to write in my stupid blog, but sadly it's true. I'm just doing this so that I can do something to rest for a while. Break from schoolwork.

Uhh. yeah. I've decided to make this blog anonymous, so that whatever I write here won't affect me. harhar.

~signing out. :)

hey! My sixteenth birthday!

2008-07-03T08:58:00.000-07:00

July 3, 2008. 11:57PM My sixteenth birthday. :D
OK. STOP IT. Why don't I sound so happy?
Actually.. I am.. very happy. Haha. It's just that I miss
my 1st year life, the stalking days and "stupid random moments"
when I was just carefree. Now I'm sixteen, and I grow older
year by year. Isn't it scary? Sooner or later you'll never
know you're having your debut. hahaha.
So, I'm blogging for some reasons..
1. SO after 4-5 years I would know how stupid I am when I was in high school.
2. I have something to throw all my hard feelings at.
3. I would remember things that I should remember.

You know.. In fact, I'm just being stupid. No one would read this, yeah I know.
Who would read crap about the adventures of a senior student suffering
from insomnia and requirements. That I'm sure. And the rantings about fucking teachers
who make my life a living hell.

Maybe I should stop now. Yeah I should, know why? because I haven't done my homework,
least haven't opened my bag. Ok I'm stopping now. After closing this page, I would open my bag,
open my planner and check for the homework. Yup. Good idea.

Goodnight stupid Blog.