you made my day. seriously.

11:20PM
Wanna see something funny? Hahaha. NapaLOL ako dito ee. Kasi may taga-*insert co-ed school here* na nag-im sakin. He's 3rd year daw and may nagbgay sa kanya ng ym ko na tga-*insert all boys school here* na which bf ng kabatch ko. Third year din.

BUZZ!!!
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:15:51 PM): po?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:08 PM): hi
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:16:13 PM): hey :D
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:30 PM): can we be friends?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:36 PM): :D
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:16:45 PM): sure.
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:16:59 PM): i'm *Boy's name here*
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:17:10 PM): you're from..? what school?
(conversation continues. mostly q & a lang)

raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:25:20 PM): so wait. third year ka?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:25:32 PM): yep
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:25:58 PM): ikaw?
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:26:15 PM): senior na. hehe
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:26:31 PM): ahh
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:26:32 PM): hmmm
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:26:48 PM): may narnig akong story bout sayo..
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:28:49 PM): from?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:29:47 PM): secret..
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:29:51 PM): :P
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:30:02 PM): ano nmn sbi nya?
(here's the funny part)

*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:30:43 PM): d ako sure kung totoo eh
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:30:53 PM): sure ok lng. sbhin m
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:31:28 PM): dati daw nkpg "F" ka sa school mate mo..
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:31:33 PM): =)) =)) =))
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:31:36 PM): seryoso?
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:31:38 PM): =))
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:31:44 PM): yup
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:32:02 PM): wait. f as in fuck or french kiss?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:32:21 PM): finger daw eh
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:32:31 PM): oooops too personal ata..
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:32:32 PM): =)) TANGINA. HAHAHAHAHA.

raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:47:56 PM): pno m nlman na ako pnguusapan? :))
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:05 PM): may binagnit na name
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:48:16 PM): ano b pgkasbi?
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:28 PM): pagka sabi ng kwnto nila?
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:48:32 PM): yup
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:45 PM): "alam nyo ba
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:48:58 PM): si raz daw nkpg F daw dte"
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:49:03 PM): bsta prngganyan
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:49:10 PM): bsta prng ganyan*
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:50:18 PM): ohh ok
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:50:33 PM): pero
*Boy's name here* (8/28/2008 10:50:41 PM): wal naman sa itsura mo gagwa nun :))
raziel gonzales (8/28/2008 10:50:51 PM): talaga? =))

*Dude it's so obvious. He's making it up. Anyway. Thanks for the laugh, whoever you are. :))

I dedicate this post to gelli. :))

GELLI!
I lurve you so much! hahaha.
I GOT APHRODITE. WEEEEEEEE. :)

in your face! HA!

I love this day. The gods are with me. hahaha. I got Psyche for the greek mythology! yaaaay! Though I like Aphrodite more, so I accept trades for Aphrodite ONLY. :P

Except for the fact that I got Psyche, today is a fairly normal day. Ms. Dacutan raged about her "sufferings and agony". Cried a little, shouted a lot and read a letter from one of her past students. Dude. She's so.. never mind. I don't want to ruin my slim chance of graduating.

The only thing worth blogging about this day is Kuya G's dramatic monologue. XD (I forgot the other parts so adlib nalang)
Kuya G: "IV3, ano ba nangyari satin? Is it me? Sorry, I'm not perfect. What can I do to repair this? Sorry kung hindi ako parang si Sir rehoy. I am not capable of doing those things."

I pity him, really. I don't even know what is wrong with our class. Though I am one of those students who kept on reciting during our first 2 weeks of class then just stopped. I have my personal reasons. :)) The funny part is that he's like a boyfriend asking his girlfriend what the hell is wrong with their relationship. What can he do to make their relationship work? FUNNY. :))

I was like "awww. kawawa naman c sir." The he started calling names, asking what is wrong with our class.
Ako: (sa isip lang) fuck wag mo ko tawagin tangina mo.
*raz no eye contact. no eye contact. no eye contact*
The reason why I don't want him to call me is because I was thinking stupid lines in my head like "aww sir. I will mend your broken heart" because I really pity him. In a not romantic way. :P

He called Patbau though.
Kuya G: "Ikaw Patbau, ano sa tingin mo problema?"
Patbau:"Sir may problem po tlga class namin. I JUST CAN'T PUT MY FINGER ON.."
Avery at Ako: "WHERE??"

tinatamad magblog. :/

Memories

I am so bored. No words could explain the extent of my boredom. I tried to fix my nails. I tried to watch TV. I tried to read a book. Nothing could satisfy my boredom. :/ If only my parents would allow me to go to the mall and go shopping. :(

So I just talked to the visitors. They were the old friends of my dad, together with their son. I remember their son alright, he was my childhood friend. We went through together the awkward phases of our lives. When we were little, his mom always says that his son and I would be married someday. I was too young to understand then. 9 years ago they went to Australia, leaving us no communication. So they're back and they expect us to talk again like the old times. Which is hard because we were both feeling awkward.

Then he told me:
him: Raziel nagbago ka.
me: malamang. kilala mo ko bilang isang nene na kalaro mo sa lutu-lutuan at nilalayasan mo para makipaglaro ng sega sa kuya ko.
him: ang bitter mo. hahaha.

They just stayed for a while though, I wasn't able to say goodbye. Ok. I admit, he changed too. His fats turned to muscles, and he's so damn tall. (sorry. bitter. di ako tumangkad) His hair was highlighted, to a shade of dark blond. Also, for a stranger's eye, somebody could describe him as hot.

I don't even know what to say, what to do, nor what to react. All the memories came crashing back into my head.

dare to laugh

Feel My happiness flowIng through my veins. GOOOOOD. K. I know you don't care, but hEll. I'm gonna say it anyway. I need to see him everyday, even though he wears shades, fur boa and glittery outfits. I still love him. XD

Lex Marcos = Ibarra. hooooooooooot. though di ko lamang cya nahipo kahit once. aww. sad. hahahaha. Ok lng. :D I swear I would finish El Fili by this week, I just feel so inspired. hahaha. On the way home, we talked about random things, GREEN mostly. One of my classmates asked me "Sino nagtuturo sayo nyan?" I even remember saying "Si Ms. Dacutan, nagdemo pa nga eh."

Sorry I just type whatever pops in my mind. I'm just so happy. Happy. :D

Tom Sturridge

Pam! Whatever you say, Tom is still my Edward Cullen. :D

Honestly, I don't know why I'm sad. Nothing happened for me to feel this way. I just can't describe why. Probably, something bad is gonna happen. Pleaaaase no. :(

Longing for...?

late posts

Ok. medyo baligtad mga post ko ngaun. soree.
bsta e2 ung sa kahapon.
Aug. 18
JAYCEE! HAPEE! hahahahahahaha.
Masaya ang weekend ko, medyo sumablay na lang kagabi. Merong mga "unexpected forces" na humampas sa alon ng masasayang araw. hahahaha. Pero ok lang. nakakaahon parin naman. Medyo bangag nga lang ako kagabi. parang lasing lang. hahaha.

re:pahingi naman ng kasipagan mo.
ra: *shoo shoo*
re: ano yan?
ra: binabato ko sayo kasipagan ko. sound effect yan.
re: ah. eh pano naman kapag sasalo?
ra:*wam wam*

medyo bangag lang talaga noh. hahahaha. tapos until now may cold war parin kami ng kuya ko. Cge lang. wag mo lang ako pansinin. DK eh. Donkey kong. wehh.


Aug 16
uhh. for complete details. puntahan nyo nalang blog ni rein at pam. Kumpleto ung sa kanila. Tinatamad kasi ako magtype.

So anyway.. pumunta kami sa bahay ni roland kasi pyesta daw. K. Nice roland! sa bahay nyo lang pyesta. Lahat ng tao ngpunta na dyan. hahaha. Nameet lang old friends. old flames. Joke. :)) hahahaha. Masaya naman nagberserk lang ng onti si lola, pero aus lng. hahaha. saya nga eh. Sa uulitin nalang. hahaha.

(michael cruz. <3 )

the vampire diaries

omg. kawawa naman blog ko. Ilang araw iniwan. Nilalamig. Naghihingalo. Nalulunod. KK. Whatever. :)) Anyway, the reason kung bakit di ako nkkpgupdate kasi I'm reading this sci-fi book. As usual, all about vampires. PERO. PERO. PERO. Mas recommended ko siya compared sa Twilight. K, twilight fans, I know hindi nyo mttnggap yun, pero totoo. hahaha. Mas maganda ang "The Vampire Diaries"
Reasons:
1. Mas nauna pa siya sa twilight. 1991 guys.
2. Not too cheesy, pero, in a way nakakakilig.
3. Maganda siya all through out. (Di katulad ng twilight na first book lang mgnda. then mapipilitan ka lng basahin yung ibang books just to finish it.)
4. Unexpected ung plot nya. Hindi cliche.

Anyway. I think enough na yan pra bumili kayo ng book. :P
Enough for now.
*shoo shoo*

Ateneo? naaah.

*currently writing my ACET essay.

"Are there any significant experiences you have had, or accomplishments you have realized, that have helped to define you as a person? "

I just can't answer the question. It took me 1 hour just to write the first sentence. As far as I could remember, I don't have any significant experience worth writing. I mean, I can't write about the day I killed my own pet. God. I am so hopeless. Goodbye Ateneo. Hello College undergrad. Hello call center, hell, you even have to be a college graduate just to work in a call center. OOhhh. Maybe I could apply in Adamson, UE, or even Lyceum. But sadly, my pride makes that impossibe to happen, so wish me luck. I'm about to embark my boat to life-destruction.

don't expect happy days to last.

Kung ano binadtrip ng day khpon. gnun ksaya ngaun. yay! dito makikita ang balance of nature. :D

Lyrics that keep on playing in my head at the moment:
"let me tell you about the birds and the trees, and the flowers and the trees, and the moon up above. and the thing they call looooove."
~then nalaman ko 1965 pa cya. Di ko na kinanta.

Anywaaaaaaaaaay. :D
Lahat ng kasiyahan ngstart after lunch. SA DENTAL FORUM! yaaay! Let's take care of our gingiva, because you will get gingivitis! yaaay! Then naggaguhan na. ngtanong na ng ngtanong IV3 pra ndi mkpgmusic. Mga tnong pamatay eh..
"Ano po reasons kung bkt nangingilo?"
"Gano katagal ang retainers?"
"bkt ngjajaw lock kapag may braces?"
PUCHA. As if may pake kami sa ngipin namin. hahaha.
Ilang beses pa ko nabiktima ng wedgy girls. TANGINA. Hindi masaya mastuck ang panty sa pwet. Hindi talaga. :))

PE NA. WOOOO.! galaxy ako. at mgsusuot ako ng trench coat na wlng damit sa loob. K. band-aid na nga lng daw lalagay sabi ni avery. Good idea. kaso gusto ko pa pasikipan para mukhang malaki. k. ano pngssbi ko. =)) hahaha. Tae. Tapos kinuha pa section namin para sumayaw ng "pangbagets" pra daw sa video ng '94 batch. yung kay yayo daw. who the fuck. So. abangan nlng sa youtube. HAHAHAHA.

Dismissal:
ako:pupunta ko mall suot trench coat w/ fish stockings tpos makapal na eyeliner. At magoorder ako sa jollibee. "Isang chickenjoy po. :D"
patbau: ay dapat sa mcdo nalang! magorder ka happy meal! :))
K. benta. HAHAHAHA.

PAHABOL

naalala ko na name ng kuya ni sir viloria.
randiej daw. hell. parang muslim lang. pero silent daw ung j.
told yah. mas pngtripan cya ng tatay nila.

Cutting of the ribbon

K. 1st of all. cutting of the ribbon kasi
inopen na ni dacutan ang 2nd quarter.

YEAH. SHE OPENED IT BY THREATENNG ME NA ILAGAY
PANGALAN KO SA BEHAVIORAL LOGBOOK.
At ang lalagay nyang reason.
"nakalabas ang bangs sa kanyang headband na may star"
WTF. WHAT A REASON.

So after ng nkkgagong experience na un.
sobrang saya ko naman ng eco.
hmmm.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
SHIT.
GANTO UN.

Kuya Gerard: ocgeh ganto nlng. bbgay ko nlng ang remaining
5 minutes sa inyo. kahit ano pwde nyo gawin.
Manuel(sa akin): tanong m nga kay sir kung pwde na tau mgbhis ng PE.
Raz: Auko nga nkakahiya kaya.
MAnuel(kay kuya g): Sir. pwde mgtanong?
Kuya g: cge. try ko sagutin. kahit anong tanong.
Manuel: Sir pwde ba kami magbhis ng pe pra sa lawn ranger?
Kuya g: Anong ilong ranger nmn yan?
*tpos blabla nkktmad mgtype
Kuya g:CGe. ganto nlng. sarado nyo ang pinto pti mga bintana
(take note. ndi cya tumatayo habang sinasabi yan. at prang wlng balak
na tumayo. nakalagay pa ang kanyang 2 pointing finger sa tapat ng bibig nya.)
*in case na mgtaka kayo bt alam na alam ko. katapat ko cya.
RAZ: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (WALANG TIGIL NA TAWA) HAHAHAHAHAHA.
* ganto reaction ko kc naimagine ko na ngbbhis kmi at nktingin pa cya samin.
isa isang tinitignan. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Kuya G: (roll eyes) Ok ka lang? (ngumiti)
*tpos umalis sa classroom
*ang awkward yata. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Trigo
*si sir din ay namigay ng 20 minutes ng period. ako'y bored at nkatitig sa id ni
sir khriztoffer viloria.

Raz: Sir bkit sa USTE ka nagaral?
Sir: gusto ko environment ng uste eh. (tpos dnescribe nya isaisa ang top4 universities. again. tntmad ako mgtype.)
Raz: eh sir. bkit khriztoffer pngalan m?
Sir: ewan ko ba sa tatay ko. artista daw yan nung pnahon nya eh.
Raz: sir. kawawa ka naman. pngtripan ka ng tatay mo.
Sir: dati nga auko ng pngalan ko eh. pero ngaun proud na ko. kakaiba eh. ntutuwa nga ako kapag sa online accounts ko. mblis mkpgreg kasi ako lng may pngalan na gnun.
pangalan nga ng kuya k(may cnbi cya pngalan na ngiistart sa letter R
at ngeend sa J. tpos may letter i at a. K pgdugtungin nyo nlng. nklimutan ko na e.
bsta mas weirdo p s pngalan nya. unang pngtripan ng tatay eh. HAHAHA.)

So. gnyan tumakbo ang araw ko ngaun.

yaaay!

yaay!
Dahil buwan ng wika ngayon ako'y mgtatagalog. PURELY. (HAHA. BE WARNED!)

Tapos na mga eksaminasyon ngayong linggo. haha. wee. Buti naman at medyo nakakahinga na ko ng maluwag. 'Di naman considered(fuck. di ko siya kaya itagalog. pagpasensyahan. K. NVM. Taglish nlng.) exam ung sa USTET.

Wala un. K. Tapos biglang bumagsak. hahaha. bahala na.

Then pnakita ng kuya ko drawing nya.

aw. cute noh? so ganto yan. ung ngdrawing cya ung sa left, si Kuya Rick, holding a lala candy na pnangeentice nya sakin. k. :)) Since dati sobrang adik ko dun. Then obviously ako nasa gitna. holding my pet. Si Tikya. Most of you nakita nyo na cya. Then ung nsa right c Kuya Ron. holding 2 bones na pnangaasar nya nmn kaya Tiki. So sa gnwa ni kuya Rick, parang kaming 2 nung alaga ko ung kawawa. (ganyan tlga nangyayari sa bahay.)

:D

MEDYO MALABO UNG PIC. SO KUNG DESPERADO KA TLGA MAKITA. PWDE NMN IOPEN SA ISA PANG PAGE. :P

*And another thing, if you like the style of his drawing, you could check his deviations. Just click the link to his deviantart.

ciao.

Physics I'm Yours.

Physics, I’m yours
(Tune of I’m Yours by Jason Mraz)

Well you confuse-fuse me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be cool but you're so hard that my nose bled
I fell right through the depths and now I'm trying to get back

Before the time done run out I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but Mrs. Formalejo
I reckon it's again my turn to draw some or fail some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, Physics, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and think like me
Understand your formulas and d@mn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find graph, graph, graph

Listen to the tick of the clock, put toothpick on your eyelids
A-la! complicated lovers
And it's our God-forsaken right to sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate, our vector is short
This is our rate,Physics, I'm yours

D-d-do do you, do you, d-d-do, do you want to kill me?
Scooch on over closer dear, I'll whisper in your ear
Oh yes love, I’ll soon love you Physics
Love you love, love you love

I've been spending way too long rechecking my computations
And bending over forward just to try to see it clearer
But my mind won’t just get it
And so I drew a new arrow and laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of errors and just go with the method
It's what we aim to do, our score is our only hope

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, Physics I'm yours

*added and deleted some lines. :)*

HEADACHE. ERR.

REASONS WHY I WANT TO DIE RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT.

I have a throbbing headache.
my left eyelid is twitching
(due to lack of sleep, vitamins, and iron. Also, over-exposed to the computer. according to my mom.)
Michael Cruz is finally showing his inner self. WTF.
I have tons of things to do and yet I'm staring at Breaking Dawn, contemplating whether to read it now or study.
My past is hunting me.
I am soooo frustrated.
My back is aching.
I am so fucking sleepy.
I think I might catch a cold again.
These past few days, I have slept for only 2-3 hours each night.
I still don't know why my day can't be complete without seeing him.
ERASE. ERASE.

UPCAT

Speechless. :/

Has anybody seen my brain? I think I left it at the engineering theater.