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The L Word


ANG HOT NIYA NAKAKAIYAK. :((

Volleyball <3

Pff. What a daaaaaaaaaay. :|
Super pagod sa volleyball.
Nakakahiya pa. nagdive ako sa lupa.
Ok raz. walang tubig dun :|
Anyway, It's ok guys kahit na di tau nanalo.
Ganyan talaga. Sadya tayong mababait at namimigay tau. :))

Aves. Di ko pa rin nakakalimutan ginawa mo.


FUCK YOU.

yay! I arbor-ed the laptop of my dad. :))

I hate how you treat me as if I'm very fragile.
I can't take it anymore. :|

Please. Please. Just let me go.
You guys took care of me when I was a kid,
Don't you think it's time for me to grow up?


Sometimes I just wish I was born in a different time at a different place.


Sorry..

Need - Hana Pestle

While waiting for my headache to subside, (darn Physhit.)
I found this song.. Need by Hana Pestle and I really
think its perfect for New Moon the movie. Check it out. :P

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCDT7X_lhzk&feature=related

I flunked UPCAT. Damnit.
Byebye ROB. :|

*sabi na nga ba dapat Monggol #2 ginamit ko e. :))

experimental game

What have I done for the past few weeks?
Errr. Give me a second to think. :))

NADA.

ok, not exactly nothing. I just killed my third
kitten!. :D Isn't that wonderful?
After taking care of a kitten for three weeks,
I learned how to let go of something you love.
Well.. I didn't exactly love the kitten, I just
got used to waking up in the middle of the night
to give him his bottle of milk. I also used to wrap him up
in a towel to keep him warm. Aww. Ok.
I miss him. :( Anyway, he served his purpose
in this world. You know how? I got to dissect him! :D
Hey! I know what you're thinking. :|
No. I didn't kill him just for my experiment, he died
naturally, it turned out he had worms inside his tummy.
Ewwww. After he died, I asked the permission of
my dad if I could dissect the kitty. He agreed and
was actually happy for me that I was going to dissect
on my own. So I decided to bring my brother so he could
watch a kitty being opened up. :D Eventually, I did it
at the garden and phew. His insides smells awful.. like
rotting garbage, then when I cut open his stomach,
these really long fat worms crawled out. I'm not
exaggerating, it was really disgusting..
Too much experiment. :|
Though I'm too happy to be disgusted. :)

Sorry? =)

PFF. I missed blogging :D

Hey you! I know that you're still angry, heck. obviously.
It's just that I miss my friend. I miss my guy buddy who
usually stays up at night with me just so I could finish my
delayed requirements. I also miss the guy who keeps on
pestering me every time I'm busy. I miss the guy who
taught me to be who I am, to act like a boy and fight for
myself. :)) Kidding. But seriously, I do miss you. I know that
it was my fault and I just didn't think about how you guys would feel.
I acted as if he's more important than my bestfriends... which is wrong.
I know, and I just want to apologize to you. I would have done it yesterday
but it seems that you didn't want to talk to me, which is understandable I guess.

I just can't let this friendship go to waste.
I miss my bestfriend and I hope you can forgive me already.
Please? I have a lot of stories to tell you. :)

bulok na nga 2.
tntmad mgupdate. sowee. :P

belated merry xmas and advanced hapi new year. :))

last vanity pics of Joker. :)

ILY baby :D

R.I.P.
Joker
Adoption date: November 1, 2008
Date of death: December 11,2008 (1am)

Goodbye my Joker. :)
You'll always be a part of me.

So un nga. He died kaninang umaga, and hours before his death ntulog pa siya sa kamay ko. Nagbonding pa kami, super lambing pa niya nun. Hay. I'll miss you my Joker, probably ikaw lang ang pusa na pnkalove ko. :)

super duper panic mode

I wasn't able to update yesterday kc may nangyari. :))
ganito un. 10pm, may kausap ako sa phone.
Biglang pumasok mom ko, then pnatay lahat ng ilaw sa room ko.
Nagulat naman ako kc ang weird. sabi nya "may nakapasok sa bahay natin."
Taena. sobrang nagulantang naman ako kaya nagbbye n ako sa kausap ko.
Pumasok ako sa room nila tpos nilock nila ung pinto. Grbe sobrang
panic kaming lahat nun. Yung dad ko may hawak na 9mm gun
nakatutok sa may bintana. Sobrang ang creepy ng scene.
nanginginig na ko nun Sa takot. Kahit yung katext ko kung ano ano na pngssbi sakin. :))
Kilala mo kung sino ka, di ko na ssbhin bka mgalit k pa sakin e. HAHA.
Aun. kinwento sakin nung mom ko kung ano nangyari.
Nagtext daw ung isang katulong namin (maid#1) na sbrang takot na takot daw
sila ni maid#2. Nanginginig na daw sila at umiiyak. So ung dad ko bumaba sa
maids quarter, tinawag niya si maid#1 wala daw sumasagot, humahagulgol lang.
Syempre nmn unang papasok sa utak ng dad ko hinostage sila
so umakyat sya agad tpos pnatawag yung guard sa subdivision.
After 2 minutes ng kaba at panic, kumatok ung guard sa pinto.
Sabi ng dad ko sa isang kuya ko "Rick, turuan kta, bumaba ka tpos itututok
ko ung baril sa harap mo." Grbe tlga. nkktkot nun. :|

Bumaba na sila tapos bnuksan un pnto. Pagkabukas nakatutok ung baril ng
2 guard sa may pinto. :| Pagkapasok sa kusina, nakita nila ung
2 katulong nakaupo sa may kama. It turned out c maid#2 umiiyak
kasi may matandang babae daw umiiyak sa ilalim ng kama niya.
Tinext nya si maid#1 na nsa taas lng ng bed nya tpos ngpanic na sila
kaya tnext ni maid#1 mom ko.

So ang weird lng tlga ng nangyri. Sobrang ntkot lng kmi dahil sa iyak ng
matanda na si maid#2 lang nkarinig. K. Ang gulo ng kwento ko.
Pero maiintindihan nyo nmn :))

OMG.
Sobrang traumatized ako.
I was surfing the channels sa tv, bgla ko nadaanan kids station.
pinapalabas PHYSICS IN EVERYDAY LIFE.
Nakita ko palang c dra. domingo pnatay ko na tv. :))
sharing. hahahaha.

Palaro

Go iv3. Go iv3.
Ok. hangover. :))

Even though the Palaro was quite boring,
I still had fun with my class. Love you guys. :D
Overall runner-up tayo! Yeah! :))

Sir vilo was overflowing with hotness during the game.
Hahaha. I'll upload the pictures sa multiply ko.
Check it out nalang.
www.razyforyou.multiply.com

Thanks sa mga photographers of the day.
Mom ko. haha. patbau. buban. and gabbey :D
You rock guys! :P

Damn

I always pretend that I'm alright. I make jokes and laugh
my guts out just to show you guys that I'm okay.
Truthfully, I'm not. I'm sick. I'm sad and I'm frustrated.

Just last night I had the worst dream of my life. I woke up
panting and crying, trying to pull myself back to reality.

I dreamt that my dad was dying. The setting was in our old house
in La Loma. In their old room, his bed was there and there were
all sorts of wires connected to his head and his chest. At that time,
I knew what was happening, it's as if the events were all fastforwarded
and I knew that he was dying. I saw him then, he was pale and
thin, just like how his sister looked like when she was still in the hospital.
I talked to him. He told me that he knew that the guy I was with last
night is my boyfriend. Weird though, in that dream I have a boyfriend.
Anyway, I told him that he should get some rest. He replied
"See you in the morning." Then he kissed my forehead.
Deep down I knew, I'm not gonna see him ever.

That's when I woke up. I didn't know what triggered that dream.
I wasn't even thinking about my dad. I just told one person about this
dream and I didn't know why. Why him? Was I expecting that
he would do something that would comfort me? Hell. I don't even
know what his plans are. I don't even know if he feels anything
towards me. He just told me that it was just a dream, nothing else and
most dreams are the opposite of whats going to happen.

My mom arrived later this day. She went to a psychic named
Mariano something. I though my day was going to turn out
fine, but my brother told something to my dad. "Pa, sabi nung
manghuhula magpacheck na daw kayo kasi may complication
daw sa puso niyo." My mom added, "sabi nga magiging single
na daw ako kapag hindi ka pa ngpacheck."
My dad just laughed, why won't he take them seriously? :(
I can't share my dream to him, I don't have the guts to tell him that.
So please Lord, help him. :(

Premonition? Coincidence?
I can't think right right now. I hate this day.
I need you. :(

it's the start of something new

K. Ano nangyayari sakin?

Didiretsuhin ko na.
Ang hot ni sir Viloria kanina.
IDC kung cno man pumupunta sa blog ko.
Di ko na talaga matitiis toh.
Sige na tawa lang kayo. Hahaha. Pero seryoso
talaga ko. Nakakaturn on siya kanina.
Sige ikekwento ko na. Hahahaha.
Baka naman gawan niyo na ko ng issue. :))

Nagtuturo kasi siya, nasa gitna ng class, naglalakad.
Ako.. doing my own business, NAKIKINIG sa kanya.
Nagbell, tpos sbrang unexpected.
Sabi niya "Grrr.."
HAHAHA. ang hot kasi ung r nya ung prang may vibration
na ewan. Di ko maexplain. K. :))
Nung una, tawa lang ako ng tawa. Di ko pa mapigilan sarili ko.
Pagkatapos ko tumawa, narealize ko na nakakaturn on siya.
HAHAHAHA. Kaderi na kung kaderi.
Walang pakelaman. :P

Baka mabasa pa to nung kamag-anak nya. HAHAHAHA.
Lheslie? =))

K. Next time nalang updates.
Manunuod pa ko Eva Fonda. HAHAHA.

These Ties That Bind

*warning. This post contains spoilers.

Due to my boredom on a bright sunny
Saturday afternoon.. Ok. I'll cut the crap.
I just watched the latest Grey's Anatomy episode
and guess what? Denny Duquette (Morgan) from Season 2
came back from the grave! Yipee! I just hope
they wouldn't cut his part in this season that would
leave viewers a WTF moment. The chemistry between
Izzie and Denny is just awesome, second to the
McDreamyMer couple. I really hated Grey's for letting
Denny die. He's the most lovable character, kind, sweet and
unbelievably hot. He even passed the "Mc" meter. :))

Now, I think he's not a regular to Grey's, just a ghost. Literally. :))
There are also 2 new characters, though I didn't like any of them.
1. a weird "off" cardiothoracic surgeon, Hahn's replacement.
2. Meredith's old bestfriend, way way back from med school.
Well, I'll get used to it. :P

Anyway, I'm glad Hahn's out of the show. Phew. I really hate her.

It also looks like Cristina's having a taste of her own McHunt. XD
I can't wait for the next episode, looks like
I have to keep myself busy for a week. :P

I know you're not a Grey's Anatomy fan.
Thanks for reading my post anyway. :P

P.S. Check out the song "Trouble is A Friend"-Lenka.
(from the last scene of this Grey's episode)

It's my emo day. :))

I keep on telling myself to STOP.
You know, I shouldn't be worrying about you now.
Why would I anyway? You're my past and that's it,
no commitment and I know you belong to whatever
you love doing. Don't get me wrong, I don't like you
anymore.. I think. Don't mind me. I'm just confused,
that's all. I'll forget about you soon. Anyway, I know
I'm just a pitiful high school student to you. I know you
have all those college girls hovering over you. It's ok.
I'm used to it and I'm just one of those girls dying just
to talk to you. You won't notice me, I know that.
In fact, I have this annoying voice in my head telling
me to stop this nonsense because we belong to
different worlds. That's it, just an unlikely encounter.

I feel so miserable bottling it all up inside of me. This is so
unhealthy, that's why I've decided to blog this and put it to an end.

Bye bye my Edward. For a moment, I thought you were the one.

heels over head

Weird day. Fuck. The giving of cards was postponed.
How could they do that? I'm like so excited. NOT. HAHA.
Anyway, I'll keep my hopes up and wait until tomorrow. :P

I just found out that I'm a racist. :/

*dinner time*
*the whole family was watching CNN*

reporter: This is the mother of our future president, Mr. Barack Obama..
*picture flashes*

raz: omg. puti yung nanay ni obama?
kuya: oo.
raz: saklap naman nagmana siya sa tatay nya.
kuya: ang racist mo.

Sorry Obama. I know you're the next most powerful person in the world. Don't kill me. :(


"And when you hit the coast, I hope you'll think of me. And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of how we used to be.. " <3

"umalis-alis ka sa trono ko dahil nagbalik na ang tunay na reyna"
"you social climbing bitch! "
"you are a desperate housewife from hell!"

HAHAHAHA. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M WATCHING IISA PA LAMANG NOW.
OMG. MIGUEL OFFERED HIS HEART, LITERALLY FOR CATHERINE. AWW.
I WISH I COULD MEET A GUY LIKE THAT. :D

I'm now officially a loser.
I'll get a life. soon. XD